My husband filed for
divorce last spring, because I bought a house and moved out. I was tired of
fighting all the time. It was the hardest thing I have ever done, I loved him
with all my heart. I did not think he would go to counciling, so I felt I had
no
choice. My choice to move hurt him so deeply. He filed for divorce the day I
signed for the house. We still talked and tried to not hurt each other any more
than we did. Eventually he told me he closed that chapter in his book (meaning our
relationship). We work at the same company and our divorce made it hard to even
go to work. Our friends divided. I truly found out who my true friends are
through the process. One day my school books came to my husbands house. He
texted me and told me I had mail at the house. I stopped by after work and he
told me he wanted to talk. I really didn't want to, I was starting to get over
our separation with the help of a councilor. He told me my books came to his
house for a reason and it was Gods way of bringing us back together. It was
Gods way of telling us that he knows my husband and I belong together and love
each other with all of our hearts. My husband told me we have a lot of work to
do on our relationship, that we are worth it. We went to marriage counciling
and it helped open up to what we both needed to work on in order to make our
marriage last. My husband canceled our divorce. The paperwork was literally on
the judges desk. We were so close to being divorced. We took that as another
sign God wanted us to make our marriage work. We love each other dearly, but
there are many days that I worry that my husband doesn't love me like he used
to. It scares me so much that he might just tell me all this work is not worth
it and we won't work out. It was so hard to be without him last summer, I don't
ever want to go through that again. I love my husband with all my heart and I
really want us to live the rest of our lives together. I keep putting my faith
in God that he will help us get through these rough times, but it feels like
maybe we are bit fixable. Do you think that sometimes people fall out of love
with each other, because of everything they have gone through? Marriage is beautiful,
and I want nothing more than to have my husband love me like he used too.
I just needed to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
I just needed to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
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